Sunday, October 19, 2008

Patience

Patience has become a daily word in my vocabulary. It is something that I pray for at least once if not many times a day. Andy it seems has regressed as we go through the many changes that have happened to him in life. He seemed so very close to bonding with me but that seems to have disappeared for the time being. I would always tell people that adopting a SN child who is older is one of the four joys in our lives, and I would do it many times over if we had the means and everlasting energy. I would be honest to say that as a mother when Andy is thrashing around in his crib at night and there is no way that he will let me comfort him is one of the hardest parts of my mothering. I know that we will go through these phases and the tides will change. Brian and I both feel the demands of four children but we also feel the joys and knowing that we are so very blessed. My heart does ache for this little boy because the world sees him in a better place but I know that the pain of loss runs deep, and throughout his life we will deal with it on different levels. I know that nothing in life is easy and really adopting Andy has taught me this on a deeper level . This is where my patience must expand as we work through the pain that is still very raw in him.

3 comments:

Angela said...

Teri, My heart is with you- remember to lean on our church family - we're here!

Sharon said...

Wow Teri! I just wrote a post about Hudson finally going to sleep on his own. I am all to familiar with those many nights of trying to get Hudson to settle down and my heart aching for him. I will be praying for Andy and for you! I had a dream the other night that I intend to post in a few days about this very subject!

James, Dawn & Family said...

Teri,
I have been there and Sofi was only 14 months when we adopted her. I remember the heart ache of wanting to hold and comfort her but she would have "NONE" of it. It will come but I'll pray it happens sooner than later. Luv Dawn

 
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